Part Two...Mavericks!

My latest (and final) rendition of Mavericks. Later I will ad the photo rendering I was working off. The process was pretty straight forward. The photo, then I reworked it in fireworks and changed it to my liking. Then I painted it (which was a real bugger). It's pretty big (not as big as I would like...hehe...love to do a 5 x 8 foot rendition) like 30 x 40 and is oil on canvas.

The hope is you can feel the BOOM of the wave. Please do comment and ask if you want to see closeups of various areas of the painting. But give me some feedback.

Thanks to Mike and Chy for encouraging me to push through on the surfer. Tough stuff.

ART Day at the Citadel Part One

ART day at the Citadel means just that. Painting, finishing work, publishing new poems, and highlighting the great work of others in a spirit of generosity and amazement at what humans can do if they open up.

Onionboy is an amazing guy. Poet, artist, and a spiritual guy in a very open and gracious way. Good humor too! Checkout his SITE regularly and buy his art if you can.

Amy Jane's Orchid

There are lots of surprises out in The Citadel grounds. This is our neighbor, Amy Jane's prized orchid. The deer around here like it too.

Reese relaxing

I moment of repose while the festivities swirl around on Sunday. Editor's note...nice picture.

Derek enjoys Rolling Stone while Adam shows off one of his many Napolean Dyno-mite t-shirts. 

Erik, Anna and Derek graced the Citadel on Saturday. Good cheeses, fine "blackened meats" and hilarous game or two of Authors. 

The BINGO Game 

Double Rainbow at the Citadel. 

Credit where Credit is Due...

Today I was shocked...not to see Bono, Brad Pitt or Penelope Cruz doing an Ad to end world hunger in our generation...but to see Evangelist Pat Robertson joining in. Well done Pat. Let's all pitch in on this one. It addresses AIDS and poverty directly and the organizations that support it are superb and longstanding. Click HERE.

Camille working on her horse box at the Art Store in San Anselmo. 

Mercury and Nostalgia

The Wademan wrote me about nostalgia...a topic I have strong feelings about...here is part of my reply...

Nostalgia is the sliver of mercury in all your white cream.

Catch the latest Hunter-esque dump at Azotus and WCJ? Quite the rants.

On a serious level. I am not well. I wrenched my back and am on muscle
relaxers...I feel like shit and may die soon. The drugs for my back make me feel like a 17 year old on prom night. Scary shit. I prefer the pain. But on the good side I tend to
publish more rowdy shit all over the Net the closer I get to meeting Jesus.

I hope he shaves before I show up. If not? Okay.

Macster

Final...er...

We turn today from yesterday’s oh-so-farcical reflection by Maugham on biblical distortion (http://whitechocolatejesus.blogspot.com/) and all the other bads news flowing in from around the world (mostly instigated by our own Government in one way or another) to a sight for sore eyes: Tonight’s fight for the National championship in the Final Four, which is now the Final Two.

Years ago in one of my many critically acclaimed, but financially doomed publications, the Blue Marble, Scott Mitchell wrote a brilliant and funny piece called “Kissing Your Sister, or Why I read the Sports Page”. His premise was simple and something like the Sports page is somehow more humanizing and yet real than all the other news.

Or something like that. I’ll ask him tonight, some 17 years later, as we watch the Fighting Illini coolly bomb the crap out of the Tar Heels and take away their first National Title.

Scott has been my best friend for over 30 years and is currently somewhere between here and San Diego, blaring dark Led Zeppelin music at a volume that could rupture an eardrum and leave clear fluid dripping out of a normal passenger’s ear. He’s probably in-between Selma and Fowler on 99 by now. Shitty drive.

Scott loves college sports. He'’s been prattling on for years about it, mostly football, which he follows with the glee or glum of a true fanatic. I have always listening with mock interest, just he does with my many jobs and endless divorces.

But then this year’'s championship is a new event. It pits seemingly omnipresent North Carolina against the upstart Fighting Illini of Illinois in their first run for the whole schle-bange.

I have to confess I have not watched college basketball since the mid-70’s when I went to USF games to watch Phil Smith do miracles (he went on to win an NBA championship across the bay with Golden State).

Though I had always assumed that college basketball was a dumber slower version of the NBA, I started to track with this year’s March Madness for two reasons. The first was the self-inflicted demise of one of my mentors, Dr. Hunter S. Thompson. His vivid descriptions of the weird world of gambling and the financial beatings and fleecing that could take place during March Madness were a thing of beauty (get Hey Rube: Blood Sport, the Bush Doctrine, and the Downward Spiral of Dumbness) and a clear invitation to a new world I should visit often.

It is sad that this year, at Owl Farm, the Good Doctor will not be holding court with the Sheriff, Anita, the depraved Ewing brothers, Princess Omin and Prince Omar and Ed Bradley, with large sums of cash rotating around the room in a blinding foray of side-betting. Johnny Depp will not crawl up from his room in the basement and Sean Penn will not call in for some half-time action.

No. There will be a great big hole there in Colorado and in that remote part of the National Soul that still has one.

The Good Doctor would have bet on the Tar Heels and insisted on, at the very least, the 3 point spread. He would scream that I was a rube, a sucker and a lamb led to slaughter to take Illinois straight up, but I would. He might even shoot over my head, threaten me with the Volt Stick or Mace me...but not until he had secured my active bond.

Oh yeah, reason number two for my interest is I am generationally surrounded by Illinois fans.

My father is a dyed in the wool Fighting Illini. And my poet-neighbor Raymond, who is young enough to be my son, is also a rabid Illinois alumni.

The two have never met. Though distanced by 50 years, different cultures and a good 400 miles, both exhibit the same exact edgy, existential, and nervous attachment to tonight’s results...like men who have been promised a life-long unconditional and torrid affair with Jennifer Connelly but cannot quite bring themselves to believe it until three weeks after it actually happens. They just scratch their heads.

My father finds it hard to even watch the game. This must be true of Raymond as well. We invited him to come watch games in our more spacious apartment and even provide tons of food and refreshments. He deflected, preferring his obsession as either a private sweet nirvana or a slow tablet of personal agonizing cyanide.

I’'m on safer ground. Like those (I was not one) who jumped on the Joe Montana/49er Express back in the early 80’s, I have everything to win and little to lose. I’m just here for the ride. Hell, my “college” was Sacramento State, and you cannot get any more sorry than that.

In fact, I have already won. Illinois has introduced me to college basketball. Damn. I am ashamed by all I have been missing. This is SOOOOO much better than the NBA. What a fool! What an obnoxious Fool I have been.

If the Good Doctor could see my shame, he would unleashing hordes of vermin in The Citadel and toss a Molotov Cocktail up over the big wall to both alert and terrify us with a medieval firelight as they quickly closed in. Like a drunken fundamentalist preacher, he would spew all manner of caustic insults and curses meant to dismantle whatever sense of self I had remaining then laughingly dance on my rotting vermin-eaten corpse like Baryshnikov on steroids.

Then he would use my phone to call Del Toro and Penn and double-down on the Tar Heels.

And he would have lost (this is, by the way 6 hours before game time).

What the Good Doctor never factored in was divine grace. I’'ve seen it in sports more often than in the world at large (except perhaps for events in the Philippines, Romania and South Africa..okay...it does happen...but not here).

While Dubya prattles on about being on "God'’s side", the Divine Being just scoffs. Bush is, even in his ignoreagance, still like a drop of feeble Texas piss in an empty bucket that is about to fall down a darkened staircase. You can see it in his blinking eyes as he tries to keep up the charade and pretend he cares about anything more than money and oil.

These are dark times indeed, and the deep wounds that this administration has allowed, created and left as a legacy for future generations will not go away anytime soon. As the Good Doctor so plainly pointed out, we went from a boisterous economy of peace and progress into a ruinous economy, record deficits, and decades of war in the matter of two years.

Maybe Hunter did not want to stick around to watch it get worse. He won that bet...it is getting worse.

When I get up in the morning it is like a flashback to the days of the Blue Marble when all the news was bad and dark and made you wish you were born in Samoa and lived in a bamboo hut. We were a nation at war. Unemployment was rampant and there were financial scandals and corruption.

Those were the good old days by comparison now.

Not much can be done today about the evil and lostness of our country. So, I’ll watch the NCAA Finals in six hours with my love Reese and my best friend semi-fresh from San Diego. We’ll sit out on the Citadel deck and talk about love, life, sex, politics and God and laugh at good old stories. Scott will rail about something truly important, Reese will laugh at shameful stories from my youth, the dishes will pile in the sink and I’ll fall asleep later thankful yet haunted all the same.

Thankful for Scott, Reese, my brilliant and grace-laden children, my father (and his wife), and for Illinois coming out of obscurity in just a year or so to invite me into their new-found party, and a whole new game.

I am thankful for the good years the Good Doctor gave me and all his letters. He taught me, among so many things, that there is always a new game in America. As Irish front man Bono keeps reminding us “"America is an idea”". Right now it is an idea gone bad and horribly rancid, but it can correct itself with unbending swiftness if we allow.

Therein comes part two: the haunting.

The specter of America looms... flipping off its allies and the whole world community, or engaging in pre-emptive wars in several countries, or prison abuses and grinding down our precious liberties at home while also empowering the courts to drag us all in for any reason. It is all just too much. It makes you feel like you live in a third world country where you should fear a trip to the grocer, a visit from a death squad, not to mention that you cannot get health care for your body, teeth or find a decent auto mechanic to save your life.

Haunted by reality TV which is the farthest thing from Reality; by Fox News which is the farthest thing from News; and The White House which is the farthest thing from Freedom, Democracy or the Constitution, we have the worst situation since King George laid siege to our mainland in the 1700’s.

Still, tomorrow morning we can read the sports page on Illinois'’ win and wish that this world was really about such things and them alone.

Would'n’t it be a great world if the loser simply went home to North Carolina (or wherever) and had a week or so of depression about a game...then moved on into their full and vibrant lives?

Scotty is on his way to The Citadel on Sunday. This picture was from my trip to San Diego two summers ago. Opening day of Baseball. As expected the Giants beat the Padres. 

Ahhh..baseball

The world has gone cynical and sorry. In the midst we have baseball, which the media and Congress and others would like to drag through the mud and mire then strain through the eye of their camel.

Steroids are such an uncomplicated story. But rather than deal with real scandals like the war in Iraq, prisoner abuses, white collar fraud, erosion of civil liberties, the government would rather focus on Baseball.

How convienent.

Well I reject that and embrace the game. It is still a great game, despite the high salaries and so-called scandals. We live in a media age that DEMANDS scandal as a means of selling their so-called "news".

Barry Bonds, the greatest player of our time, is not as good with the public as he is with a bat. Okay. Just leave him be the best ballplayer around and a great show. And while you are at it, remember two things about Barry. First he lost his father last year; and second, he still loves the game. He may hate the media (they mean him no good), but he loves the game.

All real baseball fans love the game. It has a Zen-like quality unknown in most sports. Anne lamott's depiction of the old days at Candlestick is dead on, with Willie Mays out in centerfield "looking like Jesus" (Bird by Bird).

Yes, I know it is very expensive. When the Ginats went to the World Series in 2002, I took my 10 year old son tot he game that was on his birthday. It cost me $450 and we missed 2 innings.

But that's the trick for regular season games. Show up after the first inning (on public transit) and someone will give you a ticket or sell you a $45 one for $10. Pack a sandwich in your fanny pack and a pouch drink. Go catch 5 innings in the glee that is Pac-Bell, or stay for the whol deal then camp out and write in your journal for an hour while everyone clears out.

Either way, enjoy the crowd, the rolling party. get in tot he game when it heats up, or have some yucks with your neighbor (he'll buy you a beer).

I'll miss seeing barry in left field as the season opens...but we have a lot to be grateful for until he returns.

I predict Barry will be back in late May and the Giants will win the division at the wire against a surprising Padres team.

Excerpt from Morford

Checkout Mark Morford's diatribe in this morning's SFGate.com on why we all need a Living Will and soon.

Do it because we are now in a country where you need to protect yourself from hordes of people who insist on praying for you when theirs are the kind of prayers that make God cringe.

See, there is this rift. This chasm, this nasty hypocritical rupture in America right now and it has to do with a lot of pseudoreligious types cramming their beliefs down everyone's throat via new laws and silly moral codes and really awful B-grade slasher movies featuring a beaten blood-soaked Jesus wondering just what the hell happened to his real message.

All of which is inducing a collective nausea among anyone with a brain and an active soul and a self-defined sense of their own spiritual path until they go, oh holy hell, now I need to fill out some forms to make sure misguided sanctimonious types don't stomp into my hospital room and refuse to let me pass into nirvana with a tiny shred of peace and self-respect and maybe my favorite nipple ring.

Here is the link

Two Blogs May Make a Right (or at least sense)

Checkout these two blogs for a more in-depth analysis on the Terri Schiavo case.

Bloggence, Cunning, Exile

Brilliant at Breakfast

Today

It's Goth. I like it. The Old World had something going for it that the brutal world of Bush does not. The lines were clearer and people understood their own pain and loss in a way this generation will not for..well, a generation, or two. Then they will look back to this time as a "Dark Ages" more Goth than any Goth.

I invite your comments! BBQ here in the mid-Spring. Sign-up now!

Neighbors

We do not live alone, but in many communities. Most closely with our children and who we love...but also who we find to be neighbors.

We would not usually choose them..but later maybe.

At the Citadel we have a wild mix. Best to keep things simple and organic. Care for you r neighbor. Judge not. Be available..when you can. Simple.

Citadel grounds

Mystery is a lost art...as is faith, hope and most definitely love.

Part Four

It's beautiful here. The air comes through my office window like small waves. The three deer come by for tea, the three crows come by two hours later for coffee. The mountain outside my window is alive. I hear invitations. God has left some green ferns and small white flowers to note His presence as he walked. Just a little note as if to say "I'm here if you wanna talk."